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Before Monster was born, we all speculated about what she'd be like, even though we didn't even know she'd be a she. I would complain from time to time about how she'd get her feet lodged under my ribs and push so hard that it really hurt, and my mom would say, "Oh, please! How much can feet an inch long hurt?" And then after Monster was here, and she held that little head up on her pencil neck from day one and stood up when she was a month old on those sturdy, strong little legs, my mom conceded that I might have had a point. We knew she'd be small but mighty, an assumption that has proven itself true repeatedly--including last night when she joined P in some gruesome workout thing (like P90X or whatever the hell that is, but not that one) and totally whipped his ass. He took a break and got some water, and she perkily announced, "It's ok if you need a break Daddy! I'll just do jumping jacks until you feel better! Then we'll do the third level!" The kid's freakishly coordinated and athletic, incredibly compassionate and perceptive.

I didn't know before he was born, but it didn't take long to see that Big Ez had a strong sense of humor. He's always gotten the joke, even way back when he was a baby. Most of the baby photos I have of him show him grinning his big toothless smile. Anya was a far more serious baby; she wasn't the kind of baby who would laugh heartily if you tore paper or made silly faces. She'd give you this patient, polite smile and wait for you to do something that was actually funny. Once Ez got here, it was like she had a personal entertainer, though. He's a performer with an engineer brain.

But we didn't know all of that, of course, back before they made their debuts on the outside. We didn't know that Monster wouldn't sleep and Big Ez wouldn't grow for a while. And I can't remember what I thought they'd be like, if I had a lot of expectations. I don't think I did.

When Monster was so little and just would not sleep, I was so tired that it made me crazy. I worried about her not sleeping, even when the ped offered the ever-helpful observation, "Perhaps she is not tired." My mom would say, "When she's two, and you know her really well, you'll look back at this and it'll all be clear." And it was. Monster just wasn't tired. And the times when Big Ez was being passed around and held a lot and then he'd just have a total meltdown and refuse to eat or be calmed, he was just being the way Ez is when he is in a swivet and doesn't really know what he wants anyway.

So, I wonder who this little person is. I wonder if I'll get one this time that both sleeps and grows, one that doesn't scream in the car for six solid months, one that smiles as much as Ez or is as strong as Anya. It's been long enough since Ez was a baby that it's strange to think of another baby here, to speculate about how she might be like her brother or her sister, and how she might just be like herself. If she'll be as much a Libra as Anya is a Gemini or Ez is a Scorpio (and Jesus, is he a Scorpio), even though I kinda think astrology is mostly bunk. And of course, I worry that I have been too fortunate, too lucky with my kids already to expect another so healthy, so relatively easy (except for that car screaming thing).

Date: 2011-07-06 03:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] travellight.livejournal.com
I was thinking just the other day that you might get a kid this time who instinctively knows just how to sleep.

Date: 2011-07-06 03:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lemon-says.livejournal.com
Ezzy knew how to sleep. He just wouldn't ALSO GROW, which was a problem. I'd rather have another non-sleeping grower than a non-growing sleeper, if I had to choose.

Date: 2011-07-06 03:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] travellight.livejournal.com
I'm kinda thinking this little girl will be one who does both, all at the same time. And be funny and coordinated. And will like me immediately.

Date: 2011-07-06 04:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] travellight.livejournal.com
I also think she's just going to be her own little person with a strong personality that exhibits itself immediately, just like the first two.

You probably haven't noticed, because I'm a smooth operator and all, but I'm really excited to meet her, and I'm really excited to see A & E meet her, too.

Date: 2011-07-06 09:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lemon-says.livejournal.com
Anya still asks me what I think she'll look like. I've just started answering, "Like you and Ez, only balder."

Date: 2011-07-06 03:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heathrow.livejournal.com
This is very sweet.

I do hope that one of us gets a good sleeper, right off the bat. :)

Date: 2011-07-06 09:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lemon-says.livejournal.com
It seems only fair, right? My friend Andrea got TWO hardcore sleepers. They've always asked to nap and put themselves to sleep without so much as a fuss. WTF.

Date: 2011-07-06 09:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heathrow.livejournal.com

Kids like that exist?

Date: 2011-07-06 09:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lemon-says.livejournal.com
They eat everything, too.

Date: 2011-07-06 09:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heathrow.livejournal.com
Does their hair never get tangled EVER?

Date: 2011-07-06 09:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lemon-says.livejournal.com
McK's, not that I've seen. Bus she is mouthy, so there is that.

Date: 2011-07-07 12:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] travellight.livejournal.com
Yours are mouthy. Wilbur's up there laughing at you.

Date: 2011-07-07 12:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lemon-says.livejournal.com
Dre maintains McK is mouthier.

I beg your pardon; I was never mouthy at my Granddaddy.

Date: 2011-07-07 12:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] travellight.livejournal.com
Didn't say you were. He just picked you a mouthy one for his own entertainment.

Date: 2011-07-07 12:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blakdove.livejournal.com
I'd better get a sleeper this time. But she'll probably be either a crank or totally restless the rest of the time, because Gnarly was so easy-going. She's not a napper like Gnarly was already; Gnarly slept all day in the womb and for the first month, and this one dances constantly.

Gnarly didn't sleep because she couldn't shut that brain off. Now that she has a language outlet for it all, she's ok.

Date: 2011-07-07 12:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lemon-says.livejournal.com
Yup, Monster apparently just had other things on her mind and things to do and people to see. Who wants to sleep? (Other than me. I did.)

Date: 2011-07-07 12:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blakdove.livejournal.com
I understand. You, not them.


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